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The true happiness guide - extracted from Cleo.
1. Express Gratitude
Practising gratitude do help you feel happier, more energetic and hopeful and more frequent positive emotions? Does it? Maybe to an extend.
2. Nuture social r/s
"Making time to connect w others to build strong r/s ...... in turn helps you attract more and higher quality r/s that'd make you happier."
haha. social r/s again. Sometimes just cant be bother to get bothered by others.
3. Develop Resilience
"Learning how to cope with negative events reduces stress, hurt and suffering. ......."
i agree with this quite alot but This is difficult! i wish i could do that too. haha. Next.
4. Stop Comparing
"Social comparison will never end. There'll always be someone prettier, smarter and stronger. Start appreciating yourself for who you are instead."
Oh yes, i guess it's cos since young we're living in an environment where the mentality of "being the first" is always the best and what we all should do. we've forgotten that it should be more of a model answer or a benchmark to look to to achieve constant improvement instead of being overly too competitive. Said easier than done! Comparison really irritates n mess up my mood. Shldn't comment much anymore. Yes i'm trying to appreciate myself and accept who i am and stop all that comparison and feeling inferior to many.
5. Be charitable
"Do smthg for the needy. Take up volunteer work. When you do smthg altruistic and see the problems of the less fortunate, you'll be struck by how petty your own concerns seem to be, as well as how good you feel when you can help others!"
Yes! i did thgt of taking up volunteer work at the children cancer foundation which might bring some changes to my life. but it had yet been bring to action. needa someone to accompany me. fear that i couldn't commit too then it'll be kind of irresponsible. FELICIA! how?
Just took the above as reference. Haha. Magazine help kills boredom. Was it just me or alot at my kind of age are complaining or starting to feel worried and bothered by these kind of "where am i standing?" "what exactly am i doing now?" "Am i on the right track" "What should i do to create some difference into my own life?"
suddenly i realise there are so much things that i'm facing has become a problem to me. adaptability seems to drop. accepting changes doesn't seems to be accepted by myself. communications with family ............. suddenly i'm speechless.i'm too attitude towards my parents. maybe like what felicia says, i'm putting up too quite a front. she suggested me to be more childish. haha. psycho-ing me to become one of her. i know her kind intention la, she just wants me to feel younger. am i really acting too old?
Santa Claus coming to town!
- Mood:
not clear-minded
FeliciaSPY aeroplane pez n I at tmart to study while she's happily in her lala dreamland!
Angry. Ltr she had better be more energetic than me cos gonna go shopping w her n I'm gonna get my hair trim! Urgh my face condition is not very good!! I need go for facial asap!!
Alright yes I stayed overnight to study and I manage to finish chapter 4 of marketing..like finally cos it had been spread over for weeks and tcher is alr at chpt7! Slow slow slow but there's really alot to write n read leh...sian. Trying to act hardworking only, overnight also not very productive. Tsk. Had hotcake for my very early breakfast. It's always that if I'm still awake btw 3+ to 4+am, i'll start to hear my stomach growling...and I'll b very very slow in action n thinking at 1+ to 2+. haha. some random thing I notice- the mac delivery guys just kept eating non-stop! I think they provided w unlimited food supply during their duty hours? And mac really earn like siao cos the home delivery call bell kept ringing non-stop. Ok was v bored n waiting for time to pass, waiting for the first bus for pez to take home. Wanted to call ppl to chat but I doubt no one will still b awake at such early hour! Wa eyes getting tire... K night ppl *yawn*
- Mood:awake
hmmm just finish bathing, getting ready for wednesday's lect - ISORG. supposingly i shld finish studying part of the lecture notes but obviously i was online the whole mrgn. what's revolving around me these days? i'll show you the linkage....
Mon---->SIM-----> sim friends
Tues---->SIM----> Pez & Jas
Wed---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
Thurs---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
Fri---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
spot the pattern? this pattern repeat weekly. S I A N Z zzzzzzzzzzz! till i told Pez & Spy that we need to change the combi cos it's too easy to get affected by each other's mood with this repeat life weekly with repeat ppl. Yes my mood and behaviour do get affected by this two cancerous friend. HAHA. Alright alright i shldn't complain much since i've friends accompanying me in school. Haha.
Mon---->SIM-----> sim friends
Tues---->SIM----> Pez & Jas
Wed---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
Thurs---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
Fri---->SIM----> Pez & Spy
spot the pattern? this pattern repeat weekly. S I A N Z zzzzzzzzzzz! till i told Pez & Spy that we need to change the combi cos it's too easy to get affected by each other's mood with this repeat life weekly with repeat ppl. Yes my mood and behaviour do get affected by this two cancerous friend. HAHA. Alright alright i shldn't complain much since i've friends accompanying me in school. Haha.
just felt i was quite dislocated from my friend's life (other than these 2 SIM BUDDIES).
- Apsy did initiate a meet up and a movie date with me but i just didnt arrange a date with her.
- Cindy was quite totally no contact and i've got no news from her till today on fb, i saw her shout out so just sms-ed to make sure she's still in a piece. haha
- Sandy, the one who keeps acknowledging me as her BIE. Didnt really contact her and find out what she's gg thrg. didnt know as much as before about what's her recent happening etc. Yes yes i self pronounce - GUILTY.
- Jieyi, aiya this one still ok cos did had a short meet up with her last friday.
- Vivi & KimBee, this NTU complimentary package was busy with exams so didnt have to disturb them cos they'll re-appear when exams over. JIAYOU NTU COMPLIMENTARY PACKAGE!
- Piwen. haha. this one can only via fb or msn, need to wait for her to come back to join us in our gathering!
- Ben, almost meet up for movie but i kept procrastinating otherwise due to other factors, we just didnt meet n catch up.
- Rangers, we all almost meet up but cancelled the meeting so i donno we'll have to wait till when to have our gathering.
i'm having those like they-got-contact-me-then-i'll-contact-th
*i guess all my friends are still in a complete piece! *hopefully* =X
not productive and efficient in school revision. siannnnnnnnnnnn, SHINGZ! Hahahahahaha!
in a status of LOST-IN-OWN-WORLD.
if you don't get what i mean, don't bother. if you do, enlighten me please!
- Mood:
cold
for past weeks, feeling very not in right mood thus diet anyhow so got heaty so face condition BOOOOOOOOOO! LOL. reminds me of the word BOOMZ! wtf. haha.
towards whatever or whoever i'm just feeling half hearted. sooooon it's gonna be year 2010 and march's approaching = prelims then followed by EXAMS! ..... not productive at all for the past 2 weeks! urgh.
k i might as well don update.
- Mood:
discontent
Yea. i thg i wun forget all my thoughts and feelings about this birthday but just in case i really do, so i'm gonna post about it now! .... haha.
How's my 21st bash? Almost all on my invitation list attended except QianYu, Jas, NgYewSuan, Benedict, Nigel. Was abit disappointed tho, still could accept their valid reasons. Haha. It was really a close thing consisting just my family peeps and real selective friends! haha.
Sim ppl "Hey u having ur birthday party ar? didnt invite u?"
Me "Ya..yea not inviting u all. :)"
LOL. i was really not feeling guilty or pai seh to admit honestly that i really didnt thgt of inviting them. alright maybe at least a few of them but i choose not to la. Yea that's really bad of me huh. as if i care *roll eyes* HAHA! =X
Yes i do fear of the turnout or the attendance of my selectively chosen guests! haha. All cos of that F1 thingy la! PohSinYee almost unable to come, ng yew suan kena duty so cannot come, benedict chew also stuck in F1! tssssssssssssk. i'm like huh~so how many more still involved in F1?
Oh what really surprise me was the appearance of Terry n ccw! Lol. Cos all along i really hope they'll turn up tho w the heart that i knew the possibility is near to zero. Haha. This really means smthg to me at least to know their stand towards my friendshp for them. I mean sometimes u'll wonder what you're to ur friends. So yea just this simple appearance of them at my birthday meant smthg to me. really. touched. Haha. The kind of friendship you have with different friends is really smthg amazing and unique in different ways. sometimes the turn out of the friendship is not what you can expect. it's effect could really surprise you. Certain unknown reasons just kept you so attached to them and from wanting to establish a deeper r/s with your friends. You'll still want to or will initiate to keep in contact with them etc. That's the amazement about friendships? haha. i know what i'm trying to say can already. LOL. Frequent contact friends doesn't make me take them forgranted n in fact the treasure there was smthg even more significant and meaningful! haha.
i guess everyone did enjoyed themselves. I was quite a bad host cos i didnt know how to host! Haha. That's because i expect them to self entertain n miggle around themself to make themself feel comfortable! Hahaha. That's what i expect if i'm at someone else's birthday, the host will be expected busy and wun be able to entertain you. Haha. Hmmmmm. what's more? I'm glad and happy to see my ah gong that happy. I mean like it's been long since i've seen his smile that is really filled and felt with happiness. The kind that is from the bottom of the heart!
*pause* was satisfied with the outcome of the whole celebration, feeling relax that everything is finally over. yes i seriously wished grandma was there with all of us having the fun.
My birthday wish? Nah, i didnt make any wish. cos i didnt believe it birthday wish. that's what i answered my bro when he asked y i didnt make any wish on the spot at the scene after i blew off the candles. haha. seriously, somebody tell me your birthday wish did come true! for any birthday at any age. I think i can feel my bro just become dumbfounded by my ans and just feel like slapping me this weird sister of his. Haha.
So anyone had their birthday wish came true?
Special thanks to all who attended! :::::
Family (grandpa, parents, aunties, uncles, cousins)
YJR (spy, njy, tsd, v vong, gkb) lpw - pending for ur return and presents!! LOL
Rangers (angel, pez, jordan, mindy)
Sec School friends (psy, cllb, ron, 5, fabian, terry, ccw, chris, amos)
Shanghai (weiliang, ah bin, qianyu, jas)
all of course all who rmb my birthday and made the effort to wish me! :))
Family (grandpa, parents, aunties, uncles, cousins)
YJR (spy, njy, tsd, v vong, gkb) lpw - pending for ur return and presents!! LOL
Rangers (angel, pez, jordan, mindy)
Sec School friends (psy, cllb, ron, 5, fabian, terry, ccw, chris, amos)
Shanghai (weiliang, ah bin, qianyu, jas)
all of course all who rmb my birthday and made the effort to wish me! :))
- Mood:
content
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Alright i had my first lesson for my retake IBM module! ..... I was little by few minutes. Thus i don intend to walk to the front seats so i've to take the seats at the back of the lecture halls that don't come with any tables. So had alr settle myself down, ready to pay full attention to Nageb's lectures annnnd.... Nageb kept callin students sitting at the back (which includes me) to take the fronts seats cos there's even more ppl later than me. so Nageb just wun stop calling the latecomers to move to the front. i managed to get away a few times once cos there's ppl in front blocking me.
"that girl at the back...." pause for a moment, "that one is girl or guy?" yes he saw me cos the front person who had been blocking me shifted! ...... i'm so embarrassed! No choice, so i moved to the front quickly and pai seh-ly, luckily i saw Sharon they all and i sat with them. My goodness so embarrassed! Nageb's still the same, interesting lectures full of actions so as to fully illustrate the meanings of the notes to us. His jokes are still the same before so i didnt react much whereas the whole class was laughing out loud.
I joined the NTU-ians at their school for self revision since Macro was cancelled last mintue. NTU was so full of the smell of schoooool....That's what i call a schoool. Just like TP! Haha.
Today i had revision with Pez back at TP. I tried entering the library w/o showing my matric card and walk st to the lift but was still stopped by the guard. He asked for my matric card so i gek siao checked my bag check my wallet and ltr i
Tssssk with an irritated face + roll eyes + feeling pek chek. Hahaha.
The guard asked "You forgot to bring huh? nvm, go to the counter to register." LOL.
Then i told him, "Nvm, i'm waiting for my fren" so i walked out of library. Hahaha.
Can alumini card allows you to enter the library?
If so, i wan to apply one and where to apply? From SAA?
So in the end Pez and i went Engblk to study. Wa i tell you, my god. The walk along the Engineering Concourse was so filled with feelings and misses. Memories just flashed back continously. I miss TP. So many things happened at the concourse. Running for lectures, laughing really OUT LOUD, cheering shouts across, playing water games till the floor was really flood, sitting there do ppl watching etc. is really 感触良多!!! It's so sad that every story has an ending. Really Really feel like gg back to those days. It was a period filled with too much happenings memories happiness etc. Happen to found out that Bze's having some camp trainings, i wanted to stay longer to watch them play and all but no time. hahaTssssk with an irritated face + roll eyes + feeling pek chek. Hahaha.
The guard asked "You forgot to bring huh? nvm, go to the counter to register." LOL.
Then i told him, "Nvm, i'm waiting for my fren" so i walked out of library. Hahaha.
Can alumini card allows you to enter the library?
If so, i wan to apply one and where to apply? From SAA?
- Mood:
happy
First lesson was on tuesday cos mon's a public holiday where i slept for the whole afternoon! how nice huh to spend a fully slacky day before the school starts. Alright so
Monday 1200-0300pm was IBM but starting only next week.
Tuesday 0330pm-0630pm was MACROECONOMICS!
Hmmmm...so far i cant conclude much other than the lecturer was not bad (at least i can pay attention) and MACRO isn't gonna be easy. That's what i thought and felt so far.
Wednesday 0330pm-0630pm was ISORG.
Lecturer Jack Koh is interesting. He reminds me of the uncle Bernard i knew from Schenker! This shldn't be much of a difficult subject (as supposingly to be)! So yup quite look forward to NO to fail
YES to PASS PASS PASS!!!
Thursday 0830am-1130am was PMKG! Great at least all i see are familiar terms!!! 4Ps la, segmentation la, differentiation la blah blah blah! exciting! wahaha. bze wasn't that bad afterall huh. LOL. craps. lecturer is quite interesting so i did manage to keep myself awake actually i was interested in marketing too la. :)) so i guess this shldn't be much of a problem too! Yes Yes Yes to PASSS!
0330pm-0630pm was POA! ..... Jabbar, dear Jabbar. i just couldn't concentrate much and feeling sleepy. Not to worry, i'll be supported by Felicia cos she seems quite confident about POA. Yea!
Friday - lalalalala no school lalalalala Okay one day only so many ppl half 2 daysor more. whatever at least i've one day off. what's sucky is that i've only one lecture per day and it's in the late afternoon and which means i can only reach home earliest by 7.30pm after a long journey squeezing with ppl and q-ing in the dragon-long line! ..... tt's disgusting.
anyway so i hope year 2 results will be much more better than year 1!
i just enjoy seeing ppl's reaction when they see my new hair! wahaha. today i'm in the toilet a basin away from Dawn (sim campmate) and she couldn't recognise me when we've somehow met eyes, she just turn her head away and continue to wash her hands just exactly like how you'll react when u see a stranger in the toilet. LOL. i wanted to say hi to her but swallow it back and hold my laughter after seeing her reaction. LOL. so when i went out of the toilet laughing wanted to tell spy+pez what happen again i saw another campmate and he also kena shock. so i laugh even more then ltr further up i saw Marc (also another campmate), he also shock. LOL. All almost couldn't recognise me! LOOOL. that's so fun.
ltr at the escalator gg out of school, ariel also and commented my hair's getting shorter and more tomboyish. ltr at the bridge i was so enthu in a conversation w Spy then got this person tap my shoulder. kena shock sia so it was Staphy who couldn't confirm if is me but decided to tap and try her luck. LOL. So fun so funnny!
what i told Spy and Pez: Don't worry la, just continue our SIM life just like how we did in year 1.
在我眼里.......
Pez in your eyes, there's only 2 person: Spy and Me.
Spy in your eyes, there's only us: Pez and Me.
Pez and Spy in my eyes there's only you 2!
Pez in your eyes, there's only 2 person: Spy and Me.
Spy in your eyes, there's only us: Pez and Me.
Pez and Spy in my eyes there's only you 2!
- Mood:
full
saturday to JB with my 2 SIM BUDDY BUDDY (felicia and Pez) was GREAT despite the heavy rain in the mrgn. we 3 xiang yi wei ming in SIM so need more bonding bonding to foster good r/s. LOL. WTH. really bth myself, i'm totally so able to throw my own face. spy's the opposite of me, she always like to make a fool of herself back in her own country. she wanted me to paly along with her to entertain her back in singapore but i didnt. HAHA.
i love travelling. if i got the *sings* money money money
angry and disappointed with POH SIN YEE.
it's not the first time. just let me be angry now and get it over maybe 2 days ltr. was really......HAIS.
jasmine also unable to attend which means qian yu most prob too and ah bin too ba?
mindy's unable to change flight but i can unstd her situation cos it's work.
alr less than halfhearted alr....
it's not the first time. just let me be angry now and get it over maybe 2 days ltr. was really......HAIS.
jasmine also unable to attend which means qian yu most prob too and ah bin too ba?
mindy's unable to change flight but i can unstd her situation cos it's work.
alr less than halfhearted alr....
i want to return back to the more outgoing more active me. i mean i dont want to be like unfriendly or anti-social. yes i am abit of that. i just need sort out my thinking of what exactly i want.
- Mood:
annoyed
i mean customisation by using other themes outside what's not provided by livejournal. i know copy and paste the html codes la those stupid codes i've learnt in TP yr 1 labs. but paste where? .....
i donno been using this account for how long already and to be honest, i haven really figure out how this thing works! =X
- Mood:
bored
what exactly am i gg thrg now??
why do i feel like that?
why i feel so easily affected?
why i feel so lousy when somebody could do what i cant?
why do i have to compare with others?
FUCK. i think i'm pressuring myself too much. shit.
am i too eager to be someone better? i know i want to do well in alot of things. but i'm just not. i also donno where went wrong.
at the same time i'm eager to know what will future brings me or what i can confirm about my future.
i'm eager to know who what where when why how everything of the future.
i'm feeling lost in alot of things. ................ this is not EMO. just feeling very frustrated and helpless.
can someone make me talk it all out?
maybe i need a stronger IDENTITY of HUI QIN?! alright don bother to unstd what i'm talking about.
- Mood:
gloomy
Venue - ticked
Attire - ticked
Cake - ticked
Invitation list and replies - 80% ticked
Food - got to confirm w aunty
Decorations - still troubled and thinking
Entertainments - Sandy's settling. LOL. THANKS!
Preparation for my coming 21st celebration was 60% done?
I ended my 3mths part time job at PKWA on friday. I thgt leaving this co. will be just a normal or not-much-feeling thing to me. But i was quite surprise by the reactions of my colleagues. I didnt make it know to everyone when i'm leaving and in fact mst knew it on that day or one day before. LOL. cos i thgt needn't let the know. They were surprised when i told them. Actually i gave them another surprise with my new hair cut! heh heh, i wun upload any photos till my 21st to keep it as secret as possible and surprise alot of ppl. Haha. i love seeing ppl's shocking faces. haha.
Anyway back to topic, i thgt the colleagues wun have much feelings towards my leaving too but they surprised me. They really made me felt that they'll miss the help and presence of both vivi n me. I can feel it. So was quite touched abt it. Suddenly i felt, there's so many kind souls or friendly ppl in the world. HAHAHA. Vivien n Mariam surprise me with a bouquet of flowers! i was totally dumbfounded and shocked when the florist came to ask for 'HUI QIN' to acknowledge the collection of flowers. I confirmed with the florist if the person they're finding is call HUI QIN. LOL. k kind of stupid but i really didnt expect it. It was my first time acknowledging a bouquet of flowers. It's fun and it does makes me happy tho i'm not a very flower-girl. But it's the thoughts that moved me. Haha.
Lee gave me a box of things from Crabtree&Evenly. I was having the thgt of getting smthg for myself from there just few days ago. And it came just nice so i like it alot and in addition the smell of the product is smthg i like! It smells similar to the DKNY perfume i used before. The package contains a bottle of body lotion, perfume and a scrub lotion. YEA! =))))
I'm relaxing for the whole of next week till 22nd when school starts officially!!! i wanted to go sentosa to tan but seems like weather's not really appropriate for it. I want go cycling and hopefully sunday's cycling with family will gonna make it.
Monday - Off to SIM after 3 months to pay that S$5243 for the course materials! and to post out the 280POUNDS to UOL. *faint*
Tuesday - FREE pack my room? (actually was sun-tanning plan but checked weather forecast and it has to be postpone.)
Wednesday - FREE till evening dinner w Rangers (sun-tanning?)
Thursday - 3pm Badminton w east power ppl. Ziquan, Swee, Shujie + Pearline
Friday - FREE (i thgt i got smthg on but cant rmb =X)
Saturday - JB w spy+pez
Sunday - Family picnic cum cycling @ ECP w family!
- Mood:
calm
i hate to say that i'm really stress over the soon to start academic year. deep inside me, i'm really afraid and i donno why i'm just stressing myself. i'm trying to prevent myself from thinking too much or dip into the emo state tho i really want to. cos i knew if i were to dip into the emo state, it'll affect my morale and it's gonna affect my thinking. i don wan history to repeat, i want to be positive and be more confident! it's shucks to have such contradicting feel. it's like neither here nor there, i cant find my confident i can't find my direction. i'm really impress by Zi Quan that he really know what he's doing and he have got this very clear head that he knows what he should do and how he should think to constantly keep motivating himself to stay in the best condition prepare for any academic war. impressed. what is the word? Emotional Intelligence, EQ. Quite high EQ huh. or maybe i'm the one with the low EQ that's y.
there's so many ppl with so many wonderful talents and capabilities. i donno if is just a period of emo-ness or what but i felt so easily defeated with very low confidence, low self-esteem.
whenever i think of the fact that i failed my IBM and gotta retake and go through the process again. the fear comes.......... FUCK. LOUSY!!!!!!!!! urgggghhhh. :(
i told myself before i wun want to let my tears to roll down easily. i got to be strong!
- Mood:
crushed
Candidate no. B7691
(don bother to go buy 4d cos it's bad luck!)
Principles of Sociology - 37 [Pass & checked]
(don bother to go buy 4d cos it's bad luck!)
Principles of Sociology - 37 [Pass & checked]
Statistics 1 - 52 [Pass & checked]
Mathematics 1 - 38 [Pass & checked]
Introduction to Economics - 50 [Pass & checked]
Introduction to Business and Management - 31[F A I L]
Mathematics 1 - 38 [Pass & checked]
Introduction to Economics - 50 [Pass & checked]
Introduction to Business and Management - 31[F A I L]
i've refreshed the page and re-log in twice and it still the same result.
fuck. how? how? there's no how other than retaking the subject cos it's a must to pass in order to grad. FUCK. if it's statistics or mathematics it will be esier to retake. IBM-it requires alot of memory storage n time again la!
Quitting school - it did cross my mind again, seems like this idea is not totally out of my mind yet huh. but i'll still continue my 2yrs in SIM. that _______school! hais.
face it. retake it.
should i pay to attend the lesson again? i think i just need the lecturer again but not the notes anymore cos there's alr alot. i just need some revision or refreshment from him. i think i've to pay. otherwise self study sure cannot one.
fuck la, 3 more marks only! 3 more marks also don wan to give me! urrrggggghhhhhh!
fuck. how? how? there's no how other than retaking the subject cos it's a must to pass in order to grad. FUCK. if it's statistics or mathematics it will be esier to retake. IBM-it requires alot of memory storage n time again la!
Quitting school - it did cross my mind again, seems like this idea is not totally out of my mind yet huh. but i'll still continue my 2yrs in SIM. that _______school! hais.
face it. retake it.
should i pay to attend the lesson again? i think i just need the lecturer again but not the notes anymore cos there's alr alot. i just need some revision or refreshment from him. i think i've to pay. otherwise self study sure cannot one.
fuck la, 3 more marks only! 3 more marks also don wan to give me! urrrggggghhhhhh!
fallen sick since sunday. it's so nice to be able to sleep as long as you want but it's getting boring after a day! i'm gg to quit the job soon. and i don't think i gg for any holiday before school starts already. i need to punish myself. i don have mood (actually i still do) to go for holiday. i'll feel guilty. hais. don even feel like celebrating my 21st anymore.
- Mood: rejected
my national day long weekend was spent with family and that friday with an idiot. real idiot. alright i shldn't be that bad, just that he's not what i wanted and felt disgusted about. urgh, shldn't say much anymore abt it here. interested parties find me yourself.
FIREWORKS! whoa, it's been so long i've watched fireworks! i mean rewinding back to poly years, i was so crazy abt fireworks and will try not to miss the either the national day or the fireworks festival! after coming back from shanghai, i wasn't as crazy as the first 2 years. i miss those crazy period. i rmb 2005's NDP fireworks was with ANGEL and FELICIA! haha. i was shouting non-stop and was so fascinated by the beautiful fireworks. Haha. Then i still rmb meeting leon, cw n terry coincidentally like after so long since we grad from esss. HAHA! alright memories.
As usual i love the falling golden rain fireworks. haha. watching fireworks is the only time where i'll live in fairytale. LOL. wth. craps.
oh yea, my family was interviewed by 早报 reporter! LOL. We even took a grp photo which she said it'll be published the next mrgn but it didnt. also good la! haha. my xiaoyi so enthu in the interview la. there was this as usual qn like which part was the parade which you enjoy. So my xiaoyi say the plane fighters, parachutes etc. then when she mentioned fireworks,
she said '烟花lor, 看到烟花 我们就兴奋就欢呼lor. then blah blah blah 看到就会跳lor, 拍手lor......" LOL. another question is about what time you reach here to get the place (mind you our place is actually not those early birds place cos it's at the head of the bridge instead of the middle). So her reply "哇我们没有很早啦, 我们34 点这样到的, 这里就已经人山人海了loh! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
trying to show off her vocab and speak standard chinese sia! LMAO! i laugh till what like that! hahaha. so act.
my cute xiaoyi. LOL. so funny.
had Sizzler for dinner on sunday with felicia. had a long chat. YJR we can go there! cos it has free flow salad bar for like $16.49++ or a main dish w free flow salad bar at ard $25? can eat till vomit (translate to hokkien)! HAHAHA. a good place to catch up n sit v long! cos we sat for 2hrs! haha.
hmmm, should i get a itouch myself? is it necessary? hmmmm....crumpler bag! v tempted! haha. all vivi's fault, go what ion! see so many things! haha.
YJR i think it's time to meet up again le hor? i was telling vivi we have not had a good time sitting down and catch up chat and all ever since piwen left for switzerland. 哈哈。
- Mood: cheerful
had 3 movies in a week. Overheard with SinYee, Hangover with Ben&Charles (his friend) then G I Joe with Willie.
had 1 Ktv session with Sandy&SPY. it was high till my throat hurts and almost out of breadth! HAHAHAHA.
First day. First day. First day EVERYDAYyyyyyyyyyyy. LOL.
work can be better with my wonderful partner (VIVI)! she dump us (pkwa colleagues) for her hall camp! YOU BETTER DON'T GET SICK otherwise WE'LL LAUGH AT YOU FOR YOU DESERVE IT! HAHAHAHA. Cos she just recover from a fever she got from previous camp and now she's gg to challenge again. K la, i jealous la... I WANT GO CAMPSSSSSSSSSSSS! WONDERFUL ONE PLEASE!!!!!!!! HAHAHA...wa vivi wa wa wa angry (fold arms with big actions). I GOT ALOT OF COMPLAIN AND UPDATE YOU LO
dated 22 august to go WWW!
finding a date to go SENTOSA!
SIM edis gathering kept coming up and got postpone and cancelled. wait till it's confirmed then i reply my attendance! =X
had great talk w poh ytd night.
tell you all smthg....
I WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL FAST!!!!!!!
yes it was said by ONG HUI QIN. i cant wait for result to be released quickly. i'm alr getting impatient and alr had few bad dreams which shows that i'm v stressed up about the results and school. even on holidays! SIAO BO! i dreamt that i had another exam with my group of sec sch buddies and i attempted to cheat and i didnt know how to ans any of the question! another day i dreamt arguing with SPY over school work cos i didnt work as hard or did as much revision as them! WTH right!
S T U P I D!
- Mood:
cranky
wa serious sensitive heading huh..but actually not really into religion....was just thinking how could someone convert or change the faith or religion they had ever since childhood that easily. a day will need to let them convert. alright i'm just curious about their stories and wat made them come to such decision. really just purely curious. i thgt it's an amazing and maybe unexplainable thing about it. haha. ok i've alr answered my qn huh --- unexplainable. hopefully there'll be someone who can let me unstd abit more about it however unexplainable it might be.
how all this curiosity arise and i decided to blog it down when i'm reading about ChewChorMeng's family n situation on 8days. I believe most should have know he had some illness call Spinal Muscular Atrophy which caused him to have some difficulty in walking like normal person. actually he's still a normal person. his girls are really cute and pretty! the wife's very pretty! k tt's not the main point. was quite sad to heard abt his illness from tv or from news. but life....not much can be commented. so in this interview with 8days, he was asked
"You were raised a taoist before converting to Christianity. What made you do it?" His answer was
"God works in mysterious ways. My wife is a Christian but she never once preached to me. Before i was diagnosed with Spinal Muscular Atrophy, I thought it was a stroke or a slipped disc so i went for acupuncture. Then i went to church one day and everything changed. The day after i was baptised, i finally found the cause of my illness."
i don't unstd. maybe he's in an interview and it's inconvenient or difficult to explain any deeper? okay readers wun be interested in any deeper stuff about this converting issue so reporter didnt prompt any further? haha. But i was interested! haha. Okay the reporter did asked him
"So you found relief through faith?" this i unstd and believe faith could have such big impact.
I was raised a Taoist and had quite a deep background of it and all along whatever problems i had it was my religion that helped me with other than parents grandparents or whoever la. you all should know wat i'm trying to say. along this 20years of my life, i wasn't tempted to convert (or i shouldn't use the word 'tempted'). Erm....eh....okay i didnt face any situation which i will thgt of turning to another religion? or maybe cos ppl that i've met or around me are mostly not Christianity or Catholic? But i do rmb when i'm in sec 1, i was once a few times being approached or preached by few if christian friend but i wasn't moved or did it strike my mind that i was willing to try and go join them.
wa the word i use has really got to be choosen carefully. it's very sensitive.
maybe it was this thing call Fate that brings you to where and where? I heard alot that smthg just happened to this person and it was smthg serious to them (i assumed it was to them) and they happen to come in contact with Christianity and could get converted which they say it cures/relief/saved them in that serious situation. I'm not trying to insult any religion or anybody. Like i say it's curiosity. Not only Christianity there are too stories that ppl got converted to Buddhism or Taoism.
I was at a point where i question my own religion too. my grandma incident was a serious impact on me. the one and only really great and serious case that i had to face. it really made me question but i didnt thgt of converting or what but the believe become suspicious and doubtful-ness. But somehow i was enlightened. i see things differently. i unstd more. maybe all these was cos of the chance i had in contact with my religion. so could i say what makes someone convert, the opportunity to come in contact with one religion do contribute a part to it? ya ya it was really difficult to explain.
What actually do i want to say? Hmmmm...like why i can be so attached to my religion, why someone can convert that easily...... i'm not comparing between religions, just smthg i want to know more. anybody with really special case that you've come across yourself or heard of, SHARE WITH ME!!! haha.
- Mood:
contemplative
i'm really really lazy to blog.
i really really got alot of things to blog.
but i'm just lazy and keep procrastinating till now.
The month of July is busy attending all 21st birthday celebrations. and it all happen that they're all my bunch of my close friends. so no choice gotta attend theirs and didnt appear at others' 21st. there's so many JULY BABIES! ..... w/o fail every weekend i'll be at ppl's 21st celebration at chaletsssssssss. it's tiring and i'm getting sian about my own 21st. was still hesitating if i should really not celebrate? but i wants a good gathering for my family members to get back the old times moments of BBQ-ing almost every holiday. we all miss those times.
Mindy's - abit not in the plan but it's really a successful one. tiring too.
PeiZhen's - touching. i was touched by the family bond of hers.
Felicia's - it's simply a family gathering. it's so family, i don feel like we're just friends. k wth right, family w her. HAHA.
there's only one weekend whr i'm in BKK w Jieyi+Felicia. Oh my god, this trip is reallly............ xia suay-ing for me. but i still love BKK as much. Hahaha. every trip i find another new place or new reason for me to fall deeper in love with thailand or bkk. haha. this time it's Yaowarat! Chinatown.
Below i'm gonna illustrate the whole stupid so wrongful incident which requires your own imagination to get the funny part.
Okay i'm wearing a very nice black dress that really fits into my body, and was looking like so a pretty ang moh tourist. so we were at this shop waiting for felicia to choose her watches. i'm bored so i looked around the shop and came across this watch which is so CocoPowerRanger (alright it's GoGo but we all pronounce it as Coco right). So i maciam kena possessed by RedRanger so i picked up the watch and go "COCO POWER RANGER! Hello Hello.." (with power ranger actions) then ltr i saw a PINK one, so picked it up again and make fun of Felicia cos she likes pink so much so "Eh felicia you like pink right, i know u young like pink ranger right." then i hang it back.
and as soon as i release my hand from the watch, the lower part of the watch dropped! wtf. and it's body is divided into 3 parts. then immediately i donno whr this salesperson is standing just appear behind me and say 95bhat. i was like.....FCUK. then ltr she change the price to 100bhat la! FCUK *&^%$#!!!! so i LL pay 100bhat la. So ANGRY. Play la play la. Urgh. And so this became jieyi and felicia's joke for the whole trip. it cheers them up lor. however they're tired, they think of this they can laugh like siao. i believe for my whole life they gonna laugh abt it.
Next wrongful incident. We were at PlatinumMall shopping. i was exhausted and pocket's getting smaller and becoming pte ltd so i choose not to shop with them and sat at the entrance that we came in from to wait for them. so i waited very long and i just sat there quietly looking at the in and out huma traffic waiting for them to return. finally i see felicia. then i didnt even have chance to ask her y so long then she just made me follow her to find jieyi AT THE OTHER ENTRANCE and they told me....
Both of them, "just now you didnt hear your name being call ar? we use the information couter system to call for your name!" i'm like............. so my name was like announced thrg the system in the whole mall for donno how many times la! and the mall has alot fo singaporeans, yea they didnt know who i am but still it's so embarrassing! throw singaporeans face lor. i'm like not lost at all it's the 2 of my friends who are lost and they thgt i'm lost. ....... the 2 lost sheeps. you know what i mean? i'm not lost and it became like i'm the lost sheep. the thai still able to pronounce my name that accurately they said. i didnt heard the announcement cos the place i'm sitting at doesn't have the speaker. stupid.
"Miss Ong Hui Qin from Singapore, could you please come to the information counterrrrrrrr~ now."
..... the thai likes to drag the word counterrrrrrrr . Hahaha. it's very funny.
Alright two incidents are enough. So embarrassing la! So yuan wang!
other than these 2 incidents, the trip is really fruitful. i spend all my S$500 on expenses. that 800bhat on floating market shouldn't be spent la. waste my money waste my time. tssssssssssk. all my loooots still inside my room, i didnt know how to pack them into my cupboard. HAHA.
10baht only! 10baht only!! 10 baht ONLY!!!
so we 3 each bought one n wore it there and some australian praised our flowers till it made that felicia who was initially feeling so pai seh abt the flower, became so proud of it and started blahblah-ing w the angmoh.
öh it's so lovely~ by the australian.
call me call me bring you all to BKK! haha. but next yr la, not this yr again. hee!
- Mood: content
Last week had badminton with my cousins, at least i'm exercising abit but it's all wasted when it comes to weekend!
Thursday, 18th June Visited Jurong Bird Park with YJR w/o Felicia and Jieyi early in the mrgn. Tiring and boring. It's so small and we finish the trip in few hours. Pelican was our homework for our excursion.
where is my zoooooooo trip?????????? =( my only hope now is to visit with my cousins during their december holiday. JBP should improve more!
Friday, 19th June
Friday, 19th June
had PuTian with BWP to celebrate Sandy's mother (ShanMa) birthday. meals with Sandy's mom around will always be filling! if you ever get the feeling of not enough, i think you're crazy! Hahaha. She snatched the bill from us and 'spoiled'our plan of treating her that dinner. So we only gave a small bouquet of flower and an angbao with lucky TOTO numbers inside! (by the way, only strike one number out of so many sets of number!) Hahahaha. It's great to have such close r/s w a friend's mother huh. Hmmm, not very close but at least she's the first friend mother whom i'm consider close with.
A lovely relationship BWP had. <3
Saturday, tho i was slacking at home the whole day. Disgusting! Met Sandy, Jy and Feli at ard 9+pm and had my late late dinner at Sandy's hse. Again her mother buy for us, it's a challenge to reject her. Soooooo, a FULL dinner i had. It's just a bowl of FishSoupNoodle but it was very big serving! ...... But thanks to Sandy's Mom to buy me my dinner. Dragged till late hours then i cab home. Annnnnd, i had gastric pain. Urgh.
Sunday, 21st June My mummy and I travelled to RafflesPlace OCBC Tower to have dinner with Auntie Jenny, her husband, niece and sister at Bee Thian Restaurant. i think that's how i spell the name. Nope, no photos taken. Another FULL meal. Another auntie who will never let us leave till we had our stomach filled up to 110%. But it was really delicious food served! Hokkien food. I like! Haha. So i think our next trip will be DURIAN at JB!
OH MY GOD GOD GOD GOD (high pitched)~~
Hahaha. I must really say i have lotsa of good food luck. Hahaha. That's good eh!
Monday, 22nd June After work, oh yes i've got a job with Vv via angel's friend's intro at PKWA law pratice firm. You'll be able to see me hanging out around Suntec or CityHall area these few months till September! Annnnnnnd, after work, travelled to DobyGhaut's Fish n Co. Glasshouse to dine with the Edis. Haha. Ya, Edis this name is back huh after so long of no mentioning in here. Cos i played MIA with all SIM ppl except Felicia, Pez and Swee. LOL. Anti-social, unfriendly, WHATEVER laaaaaaaaaa. As if i care *roll eyes* Oh that's so bad huh. So throughout dinner, 'walaoeh what time then finish? what time then i can leave and go home?' ya my heart isn't with them. Wa lao eh, the Fish n Chips arrrrr, wa....is big one lor....it's soooo soooo soooo full and i feel nauseous after finishing only half of the fish and some fries. Homed, didnt join them for any after activity.
Wednesday i didnt had dinner and ate 2 bread cos i thgt i didnt want anymore too full dinner or meal. Guess what, in the end i had durians treat from my father's friend. Oh the feeling of able to taste durian after craving for so long is heaven. Haha. So i had another full meal.
Where have two of my friends gone? Cindy Sinyee WHERE ARE YOU?????? Failed to meet up.
I arranged a date but you gave me up for meeting your bf, i understand that that's how you have always been i knew how you are when u're in a r/s yet i still feel disappointed and rejected. i think what makes me feel rejected and mind this time because we're suppose and we all knew and we had already long arranged that we'll meet up on Cindy's last day of work which is also your off day to have a good meal and good catch up. BUT you forgo us for Marcus. Okay lor. and now it makes me not wanting to date you out and wait for you to date me instead. i'm not gg to make the move. i knew LEOs are Heavy Colour Light Friend. (dictionary.com couldn't gave me this best translation they had for 重色轻友.) Ya it's like ........
Anyway, Sinyee i wun contact you unless you comes find me. I'll meet Cindy w/o you. Have fun yourself huh. As if she'll be able to read this.
- Mood: pleased
Pulau Ubin Trip w family:
Oh my, i almost cause my uncle to drown. clumsy me. luckily nth happen otherwise i wun know where to get another uncle to return to both of my cousins and my san yi. phew. my mind went blank at that moment la and only thgt, "pls god pls do not let anything happen to him, save him pls pls pls." while trying to board the boat, my stupid shoe tripped on the rope and drop into the water (sea). then my uncle wanted to help me picked it up by lying on the boat then use his hands to try scoup it up but he lost his balance. oh my god. he fell into the sea. i was so so so so guilty and damn awkward. tho nobody blame me la. scary~ is really phew, nth happen.
Perth Trip:
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an overall conclusion that i'll visit the place again w friends or alone. it's a very relaxing place till when i'm back in singapore, i felt so lost and didnt know what to do. it's ideal place for retirement. i love the place, fremantle!
was now newly fascinated by the culture of the western countries after visiting perth and watching Angels&Demons. (like tho aust belongs to part of asia) LOL.
i want a good life for my future for my kids for my family. cos i envy those who are having it now. so i've got to strive hard, i've got to keep motivating myself and keep motivated n strive in my academics for the future that i desired. i envy those rich or succeessful ppl. education does matters and no matter what it'll still make a difference in your stand in life in the realistic world we're all in. Tho i cant find someone telling me work's better, instead got convince by the latter. abit ha-ha-ha-ha right for what i'm posting now, but ......yeah. :)
i'm glad i get this sort out n am hoping or i will try to keep this positive motivated attitude inside me. hopefully it'll can last till before my year 2 starts and even throughout the uni years. i knew i cannot make it if i'm to study overseas for a master but i'll do my best in here. (=
been becoming a little face money or have a materialistic thinking. or is not materialistic but i just don wanna have a sad future and regret when i think back.
i'm growing up :))
- Mood: chipper
Yesterday:
Angels and Demons ----- NICE! omg lor. i don mind watching again if my tickets were paid by others. LOL. sociology does have a little link to this movie man, religion VS science. the calefare inside was so handsome! Hahaha. NICE NICE NICE. and i realise how fortunate and clever my bro is to choose to visit those places during his exchange programme last year. I envy him alot now! Tsk. I also want to go!!!! All the places are so beautiful! NICE NICE NICE.
i was finding very hard to raise my voice a little louder to whomever i'm gg to speak to. cos i'm having acombo of sore throat and flu! tsssssk. so not at the right time when i'm gg for holiday on thurs! Angry but couldn't do anything cos it's impossible for speed recovery within 2 days! I'm a little addicted to DIY-ing stuff. Haha. Till felicia thgt i'm so girl. haha. but it's fun only when you got inspirations and where you get wonderful results. alright at least satisfying myself. and where these inspirations come during? during the intense stressful period when i'm having exams! and now i've forgotten alot of very useful ideas that are thgt when i'm unable to sleep during that stress period. so stress do create some kind of result huh. Haha. cos for angel's 21st, i pasted sequins one by one to form her name onto the board. while pasting each one of the sequins, i keep asking myself "why am i doing all these. it's so crazy and girlish." haha. i usually don do these kinds of stuff leh. i told feliciat that i was quite disgusted by myself by my recent behaviour. Such yucky and er dao~ i'm not me. Hahaha.
Today:
i was half awake the whole night due to the sickening throat. it becomes even more dry as the night becomes short. till 6.33am, i couldn't stand it and woke up for a drink, at least it helps a little but now the problem is, the air is too windy and chilling till i thgt i'm having a fever sia. i was so worried that it would affect my holiday! but luckily i found out from the sis that it is actually cos of the rain in the early mrgn. but the rain just lasted a short while and it's not heavy but the air could be so cooling and windy. Nice weather! So i just continue to sleep till 12noon. Wahaha. When i wake up, wanted to talk to my sister, i realise my voice got deeper and sexier. LOL. and i couldn't talk even louder than ytd's softest volume that i had. i couldn't tahan but keep laughing at my own voice. Haha. It's really MAN! actually i quite love it. HAHAHA. What i'm more concern is, it would not affect my trip tml knowing the immigrations are quite strict over virus or flu thingy now!
- Mood:
energetic
